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COME HOME
To me, you're such a treasure
You give me so much pleasure
In the many little things you do
What would I do without you
I love the way you hold me in your arms
Showering on me your many charms
Your soft tender kisses blow me away
I daydream of us many a day
When you make love to me it feels so right
I go to bed thinking of us almost every night
Come home my darlin' please make it soon
I need your touch, it sends me to the moon
Your eyes, like the stars, twinkle and shine
From your soft hair to your feet, you're so divine
When you look into my eyes I realize I'm done for
The way you touch me makes me crave you more
The effect you have on me is second to none
You are my shining star and my morning sun
Come home my darlin please make it soon
I love how your touch sends me to the moon
© 2016 Suzanna Jayne Mullinsi
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Ego
You may have broken my heart but you didn't break me!
With all your alibis and lies how could I not see,
A wolf in sheepskin is exactly what you are;
I should have known things weren't up to par.
You came off as being most caring and kind;
I still don't believe I could have been so blind.
You promised me love and lots of pleasure,
Giving me compliments just for good measure.
When better offers began to come along,
You stopped singing our sweet love song.
You didn't even offer an explanation,
If the way you've treated me is any indication;
I am much better off if that's what love is to you.
Forgive me for saying but you don't have a clue!
You don't care whom you hurt as long as you get what you want--
Other women feed your ego and at you themselves flaunt.
My how well you're able to cover your bad behavior;
So many women look to you as if you're their saviour.
I'm so glad I found out what you are when I did!
I thank the good Lord now, goodbye is what you bid.
I feel for the many women w
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AN OBSERVATION
I have fought wars that left me bathed in scars
Some are on the outside, most are on the inside
My scars are numerous just like the many stars
My heart and head only seem to collide
I have learned I can no longer trust my heart
It leads me down paths I no longer wish to travel
When I followed its lead, my life was torn apart
Each time I'd watch my life begin to unravel
So from this point on, I will listen to my head
It leads me to the path I need to travel down
When I followed my heart, I almost wound up dead
I tried to keep my head above water so I'd not drown
I have always heard that one should follow their heart  
But doing so has not worked so well for me
My heart gets too emotional whereas my head is smart
Perhaps in following my head, I will finally be set free
© 2016 Suzanna Jayne Mullins  
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WHAT A TRIP
Your sex appeal is quite notably strong
Pass me another hit from the bong
No better friends have I been among
We’ve danced and partied all night long
 
This weed is knocking me for a loop
You are new among our friendly group
Wonder which of us gave you the invite
Been fighting your animal magnetism all night
 
The weed is starting to take control
I see you looking into my very soul
My clothes are gone, I’m naked and afraid
Yours are gone also, you’re prepared to invade  
You run a finger down my trunk—
I watch my skin split wide open
Using both hands, you pull it apart
To see inside me what is broken  
I watched your hand in amazement—
You reached in and took out the dark
I turn and look around behind me
As a friend has started to bark
 
I look back at you—
You’re holding my dirty black heart
Your hand is somehow glowing
As you pull my dark heart apart
 
You touched it with your glowing finger
For there is no time
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THE COFFEE SHOP
I passed him
in the coffee shop
on the corner.
He was drinking a latte
and, I, hot cocoa.
Our eyes met in an
instantaneous attraction.
As I walked by his table,
he took my hand,
paid for our drinks, and
led me out the door.
Between us,
no words were spoken.
We both knew
what was about to happen.
We walked across the street
to his hotel.
He opened the door,
pulling me inside,
kicking the door closed
with his foot
Now, the ending
I leave to you.
© 2015 S.J. RUDD
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WHEN?
You have lived a life of luxury I know nothing about
You have plenty of money, and all kinds of clout
I live in a ranch house on a couple acres of land
I drive a 30-year-old car that runs to beat the band
You wear expensive dresses, jewelry, and shoes
While jeans, T-shirts, and tennis shoes are what I choose
Your Husband and you drive the latest model cars
When guests visit your home you hand out Cuban cigars
I wouldn't know which fork to use at one of your fancy dinners
To your guests, my friends and I, would all be sinners
You would take us under your wing to try and make us better people
But when was the last time you actually sat under the church steeple?
© 2016 S.J. RUDD
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DARK SHROUD
You evil dark shroud;
I feel you movin’ in
yet again.
You take over me
makin’ me feel:
hollow
useless
worthless
unlovable
emotional
depressed
anxious
unsociable,
yet lonely.
You are always there
buried deep.
Medication can only
keep you at bay
for so long.
You sneak up on me
like a tiger
about to pounce.
When you do,
I seem to be powerless
to fight you,
so I ask
my prayer warriors
for their help.
They bind you
in the name of Jesus,
and the light
shines once again.
© 2015 S.J. Rudd
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THE SHE-RAVEN LADY IN BLACK
Once you really get to know her
She’s quite a hard habit to break
You might ought to keep your distance
Or your soul will be hers to take
She will first possess your body
Before you can blink an eye
She will have your heart in hand
For you see, she is very sly
You must be invite her in
For her to gain control
Don’t look into her eyes
Or you’ll find your very soul
You’ll have no recollection
Of how this came to be
Before you know it you’ll realize
Your hers for eternity.
She’ll snare you with her beauty
As soon as she captures your eyes
Run as fast as you can, son
Before the she-raven flies
Do not be ensnared by her beauty
Or there’ll be no turning back
She’ll own both your heart and soul
This she-raven lady in black.
© 2015 S.J. RUDD
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SAVED BY THE BELL
She sits by the phone waiting...
for the call that doesn't come.
She checks her email repeatedly...
for the email that doesn't come.
She checks the mailbox each day...
for the letter that never comes.
The darkness engulfs her.
The pain it brings is unrelenting.
While getting ready for work,
after brushing her teeth,
a shiny glint catches her eye
The bathroom light dances across it...
a gleaming razor blade.
How easy it would be to pick it up,
step into the tub, and
slice her wrists wide open
watching her life's blood drain away.
The ringing phone distracts her,
as her laptop says, "You've Got Mail,"
and a letter drops through the mail slot.
© 2016 S.J. RUDD
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HER BEST MEMORY
They'd had sex that morning
Later she became unwell.
Play and sing for me," she begged.
He sat on the side of the bed
without a stitch on
singing My Sweet Lady to her
while playing his guitar,
making her believe he loved her
just like she loved him.
She lay on the bed listening
intently, as the music soothed,
He waited on her hand and foot
until she felt better.
Later, when she got out of bed
he pulled her into his arms
and softly kissed her.
"I'm glad you are feeling better."
Smiling she replied,
"It was the music."
It was her best memory
of their short time together.
Her world turned upside down
when she discovered
the other woman.
© 2015 S.J. RUDD
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MY SOUL
Hold me, darlin’
Hold me tight
For it is only then
I will be alright
Love me,  darlin’
Like I need
For it is only then
I will be freed
Taste me, darlin’
Drink my soul
For it is only then
I will be whole
Kiss me, darlin’
Long and deep
For it is only then
My soul you can keep.
© 2016 S.J. RUDD
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ANOTHER LOVE DIES
He left her bruised and broken,
and so damn confused.
Words were left unspoken;
She felt used and abused.
Their love light went out,
She’s shattered throughout.
Because of lies and alibis,
Yet another love dies.
© S.J. RUDD
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SWEET LOVE
Slow dance with me, my love,
as the rain drenches us from above.
Hold me ever so tightly, my dear;
I’m cold from the rain, draw me near.
Kiss me long and deeply, darlin’,
for your sweet love, I am starvin’.
Pick me up in your arms, honey;
you make me happy, you’re so funny.
I want you to show me the world, honey bun,
because we have only just begun.
© 2016 S.J. RUDD
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I WILL NOT TAKE IT ANYMORE
Am I right side up or upside down?
Why do I feel like I will drown?
Am I coming or am I going?
Is the darkness inside me showing?
When in the black murky abyss,
I can hear my demons hiss!
Life has not been too kind;
often toying with my mind.
I will not take it anymore!
Show those demons to the door!
© 2015 S.J. RUDD
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ANXIETY ATTACK
Pure agony rips my soul apart
as consequences of my choices take their toll
My breath is very irregular and I feel so weak
It makes me feel my future will be quite bleak
Anxiety with depression can be such a sneak
As in my body, soul, and mind havoc doth wreak
I cannot stand up for feeling very dizzy
I have no time for this, I stay so busy
I force myself to do a lot of slow controlled breathing
To slow down my heart from it’s hard fast beating
I close my eyes and clear my mind
To break free of these monsters who are most unkind
Relaxing meditation soothes my stress
When I feel I am under such strong duress.
I light a candle, and read God’s Holy Word
Handling it this way is my method preferred
So now I can move on once more with my life
Without anxiety and all of its strife.
© 2015 S.J. RUDD
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FOREIGN LAND
A secret that
had long been kept
Soon got so bad,
I knew I needed help
So many days,
I’ve felt so enraged
Is this how animals feel
when they’re caged?
These days I wonder
just who I am
Because there are days
I don’t give a damn
Through all the seasons,
Roaming this foreign land
Blowing up for reasons
I cannot understand
Hormones have left me
forever changed
Feeling like a monster
who’s terribly deranged
I’ve traveled this bad land
and others have too
How did I wind up here?
I haven’t a clue!
It takes a lot of strength
to face it head on
After I sought help,
I made my secret known
To let other women know
they’re not traveling alone.
© 2015 S.J. RUDD
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My camera tore up almost a year ago.  I have been so lost without it.  My hobbies are taking photos, writing, and listening to music. I have been lost without my camera.  I finally took it to Cameragraphics to be fixed.  Turns out, the issue wasn't in the body of the camera, but in the lens themselves.  The sales clerk who helped me said both lens were shot, since neither would autofocus.  It has been one hell of a camera because I have used it plenty since buying it in 2010.

I had an 18-55 mm lens and a 55-250 mm lens.  The sales clerk determined the lens were shot told me I could buy a 16-300 mm lens which would do what it took both to do with the other two.  I was all game!  Needless to say, while I was there, I invested in a camera bag also.

I am loving my new lens, and I love my new camera bag.

On a sad note, Cameragraphics was burglarized a few days ago.  Someone broke out the front window of the store with a crowbar and stole 70,000 worth of merchandise from them.  I sure hated to hear about that.  I won't trade with anyone else when it comes to cameras.  They know their stuff!

I had to go to the bank yesterday.  Cameragraphics is right beside my bank.  I noted the windows were fixed and they appeared to be back in business! #lovecameragraphics #lovemynewlens #lovemycamerabag
  • Listening to: clock ticking
  • Reading: Collected Poems Ted Hughes
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: on Deviant Art
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water
To me, you're such a treasure
You give me so much pleasure
In the many little things you do
What would I do without you

I love the way you hold me in your arms
Showering on me your many charms
Your soft tender kisses blow me away
I daydream of us many a day

When you make love to me it feels so right
I go to bed thinking of us almost every night
Come home my darlin' please make it soon
I need your touch, it sends me to the moon

Your eyes, like the stars, twinkle and shine
From your soft hair to your feet, you're so divine
When you look into my eyes I realize I'm done for
The way you touch me makes me crave you more

The effect you have on me is second to none
You are my shining star and my morning sun
Come home my darlin please make it soon
I love how your touch sends me to the moon

© 2016 Suzanna Jayne Mullinsi
COME HOME
My husband works in construction and sometimes is gone for months.

Your soft tender kisses blow me away
I daydream of us many a day

When you make love to me it feels so right
I go to bed thinking of us many a night
Come home my darlin' and please make it soon
I need your touch, it sends me to the moon

Your eyes, like the stars, twinkle and shine
From your soft hair to your feet, you're so fine
When you look into my eyes I realize I'm done for
The way you touch me makes me crave you more

The effect you have on me is second to none
You are my shining star and my morning sun
Come home to me darlin'
come home soon
I love how your touch sends me to the moon

© 2016 Suzanna Jayne Mullins
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You may have broken my heart but you didn't break me!
With all your alibis and lies how could I not see,
A wolf in sheepskin is exactly what you are;
I should have known things weren't up to par.
You came off as being most caring and kind;
I still don't believe I could have been so blind.
You promised me love and lots of pleasure,
Giving me compliments just for good measure.
When better offers began to come along,
You stopped singing our sweet love song.
You didn't even offer an explanation,
If the way you've treated me is any indication;
I am much better off if that's what love is to you.
Forgive me for saying but you don't have a clue!
You don't care whom you hurt as long as you get what you want--
Other women feed your ego and at you themselves flaunt.
My how well you're able to cover your bad behavior;
So many women look to you as if you're their saviour.
I'm so glad I found out what you are when I did!
I thank the good Lord now, goodbye is what you bid.
I feel for the many women who will fall for your deceit,
How you keep your dishonesty hidden is really quite a feat.
Some women have already discovered exactly what you are--
You collect hearts like trophies, how many are in your jar?
You cannot possibly have a conscience within your bleak, dark soul.
I can't help but wonder what exactly is your goal?
Does collecting your jar of hearts make you feel like a man;
Or do you break so many simply because you can?
I can't help but wonder what brought you to this place;
You break women's hearts at such a frightening pace.
You never man up taking responsibility for what you've done--
To you, it's just a game and all done in fun.
Your alibis and lies will one day catch up with you;
I pray the women's hearts you've collected get to see you get your due!

© 2016 Suzanna Jayne Mullins
Ego
Poem about a narcissistic sociopath.
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I have fought wars that left me bathed in scars
Some are on the outside, most are on the inside
My scars are numerous just like the many stars
My heart and head only seem to collide

I have learned I can no longer trust my heart
It leads me down paths I no longer wish to travel
When I followed its lead, my life was torn apart
Each time I'd watch my life begin to unravel

So from this point on, I will listen to my head
It leads me to the path I need to travel down
When I followed my heart, I almost wound up dead
I tried to keep my head above water so I'd not drown

I have always heard that one should follow their heart  
But doing so has not worked so well for me
My heart gets too emotional whereas my head is smart
Perhaps in following my head, I will finally be set free

© 2016 Suzanna Jayne Mullins  
Your sex appeal is quite notably strong
Pass me another hit from the bong
No better friends have I been among
We’ve danced and partied all night long
 
This weed is knocking me for a loop
You are new among our friendly group
Wonder which of us gave you the invite
Been fighting your animal magnetism all night
 
The weed is starting to take control
I see you looking into my very soul
My clothes are gone, I’m naked and afraid
Yours are gone also, you’re prepared to invade  

You run a finger down my trunk—
I watch my skin split wide open
Using both hands, you pull it apart
To see inside me what is broken  
I watched your hand in amazement—
You reached in and took out the dark
I turn and look around behind me
As a friend has started to bark
 
I look back at you—
You’re holding my dirty black heart
Your hand is somehow glowing
As you pull my dark heart apart
 
You touched it with your glowing finger
For there is no time at all to linger
Your touch feels like a fiery dart  
It is no longer a filthy black heart

You put it back inside my chest
You tell me now it’s important to rest
I feel like I am light as a feather
How my skin got put back together--
I have not got one clue
Believe me when I tell you--
No lie—it looks brand new

Magically, my clothes are on
I look, and yours are too
Wow! What a trip that was
Now, I bid you all adieu
 
© 2016 Suzanna Jayne Mullins  
My camera tore up almost a year ago.  I have been so lost without it.  My hobbies are taking photos, writing, and listening to music. I have been lost without my camera.  I finally took it to Cameragraphics to be fixed.  Turns out, the issue wasn't in the body of the camera, but in the lens themselves.  The sales clerk who helped me said both lens were shot, since neither would autofocus.  It has been one hell of a camera because I have used it plenty since buying it in 2010.

I had an 18-55 mm lens and a 55-250 mm lens.  The sales clerk determined the lens were shot told me I could buy a 16-300 mm lens which would do what it took both to do with the other two.  I was all game!  Needless to say, while I was there, I invested in a camera bag also.

I am loving my new lens, and I love my new camera bag.

On a sad note, Cameragraphics was burglarized a few days ago.  Someone broke out the front window of the store with a crowbar and stole 70,000 worth of merchandise from them.  I sure hated to hear about that.  I won't trade with anyone else when it comes to cameras.  They know their stuff!

I had to go to the bank yesterday.  Cameragraphics is right beside my bank.  I noted the windows were fixed and they appeared to be back in business! #lovecameragraphics #lovemynewlens #lovemycamerabag
  • Listening to: clock ticking
  • Reading: Collected Poems Ted Hughes
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: on Deviant Art
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water

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Susan
Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
United States
Hello! Welcome to my DA site! Photography and writing are my passions. I just got my first DSLR in October 2010, a Canon EOS Rebel T2i complete with zoom lens (55-250mm). I love photographing the moon, trees, clouds, old buildings, sunsets, and so much more! I feel that Nature is God's canvas. It is He who inspires me. I am blessed to be able to capture His beauty through my lens. I write under my own name and my pen name, so both are my writing.


Current Residence: Alabama
Favourite genre of music: Gospel
Favourite photographer: Ansel Adams
Favourite style of art: Photography
Operating System: Windows 8
Favourite cartoon character: Scooby Doo
Personal Quote: Life is what you make it! Always reach for the stars!
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che38 Featured By Owner May 20, 2017
Thank you so much for the +fav and for the Added to my devWatch! . Really appreciated :heart:
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Rjet33 Featured By Owner May 28, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
You are most welcome. :)
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coldstares Featured By Owner May 17, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Hello Susan my friend! Thanks so much for the fave, I do appreciate it! I hope you are doing well, and your life is filled with much happiness! 
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Rjet33 Featured By Owner May 17, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Hi there!  Doing well, thanks.  Hope all is well with you too! :)  I pray you are happy as well.  Sure makes life a lot easier!
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coldstares Featured By Owner May 17, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
LOL That is true! Also, congratulations on the new lens!!! :D I can't wait to see your photos coming in! 
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Rjet33 Featured By Owner May 17, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you!  I am so happy, happy, happy to get it!  I have a pic I can post that I took recently.  It did an outstanding job. :)
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KateHubar Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2016   Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for +fav!!!La la la la 
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Rjet33 Featured By Owner May 5, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
You're welcome. :)
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EarthHart Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank'ee kindly, m'deer :bow: for the favour you's granted me work :D
It's muchly appreciated :hug::rose:
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Rjet33 Featured By Owner May 5, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
My pleasure. :)
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